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Health and life

Hello deary's, so today I don't think I'm going to blog about anything inspirational or anything. Maybe I will put something in later but not right now. I am going on a bit of a health kick because I thought I should probably start being healthier since I am getting older and would like to stay young and pretty for as long as possible. I have been working out, as always, but I have been a bit more solid with it. I have also been drinking smoothies because I don't eat breakfast, which is horrible. I really don't eat breakfast because I don't like to sit down and eat in the morning, it makes me feel like I'm wasting time. I don't like things like granola bars or trail mix so I really just didn't eat anything after my workout which would make me feel very run down and tired and just not very happy. Then I decided to try making smoothies; I normally use one single person pack of Greek yogurt (in whatever flavor I want), one banana (I hate bananas but I can stand them in smoothies), a handful of greens (Kale or spinach, whichever one is available), vanilla almond milk (You can use any milk, I like almond milk because it doesn't upset my tummy and I like vanilla because I don't have to add any honey to it), pumpkin seeds, and cinnamon. This really isn't set in any specific order or reason and I change it up daily, causing me to be a happy person. My younger sister has also decided to join me in my daily smoothie drinking ritual and enjoys it just as much as I. She doesn't even mind that it's green, I think she secretly thinks it's cool to be honest. My life is finally settling down but I am sure that pretty soon it is going to be uprooted once again and shaken around like a snow globe.

That is what I will write about, how to roll with the punches. I have had a lot of punches so I am pretty good at rolling. I think that one thing I dislike about this world is how once I get comfy and happy in my little nest, a giant wind comes and knocks it all down. Then again I would much rather be ever changing than stuck in the same spot, never advancing, never retreating. I would become so bored if my life was stuck in one spot and it never changed. While we hate change I think it is what makes us happy. Change keeps things interesting and different and exciting, so while I hate i,t I love it too. Without change we would become stagnant and useless. We would just fizzle out. Change also teaches us how to adapt, how to become scrappy and have good stories. No good story is anything without an interesting plot twist, so change is wonderful.

Now while I'm saying change I really mean life because life is change. Life is flipped this way and that, causing us to become scrappy and our knowledge to be ever growing. So while being upset about change, or just life in general, just remember that this will one day pass and you will then have a great story to tell people.
Hope you are having a good day! -J

Addiction.

I hurt, I hit, I make others cry.

I harm, I make you want to die.

But it's not only you who wants it to end,

it's everyone else, but especially your dear children.

The ones you say you love, but at night you beat.

The ones who try to help you and keep your problem discrete.

And you think it's okay because they will never leave.

But you seem to forget your problems make them heave.

You add an extra burden, much un-needed pain.

And it's all my fault because I have this sick pleasure to gain.

But you need me in your life and they know it,

So I'm always in theirs, though they never show it.

They put on a brave face, they don't let me out,

Even when we make them want to scream and shout.

That's right, now we're becoming one.

As they get older you feel shunned. 

What you don't know is that they'll always love you.

They won't blame you, because they blame me for all you do.

I'm known as addiction, I hurt, I hit, I make others cry.

And in the end you get rid of me, or you will die. 

I will not.

My soul is as free as a bird, it will not be chained.

My will is as strong as a bull, it will not be stopped.

My love is ever-growing like a vine, it will not be confined.

My thirst for knowledge is like the Sahara, it will not be quenched.

My hunger for greatness is like a lion, it will not be satisfied. 

My ability to survive is like a cockroach, it will not be crushed.

My happiness is like a volcano, it explodes and it will not be contained.

My kindness is like the flu, it will not be cured.

My wit is like a cheetah, it will not slow down.

And I promise to keep these characteristics. For they make me, and many others great. And even though some may find them unnecessary, they are a part of me. 

I am proud of them, and I will not apologize.  

It's your fault. Warning- Swearing.

You're ridiculous, you would never listen.

You took all our problems and blamed it on them.

Now I'm sitting here spitting out hate from my mouth,

Cause all the garbage you put in is finally pouring out.

I don't really care if you're dead and gone,

Cause you know what? You were so damn wrong.

You think you left me all bruised and broken?

No, fuck you, I'm a goddamn token.

I'm nice and cool and fun to hang out with,

All you ever did was call when you were down with it. 

You beat me, your bruised me, you made me cry,

But guess what? I don't even give a damn why.

I don't care what the reason, I don't care if you cared,

Cause guess what hun? You were never there. 

I don't care how you twist it, I don't care how it turns,

You never cared enough to stop the burns.

You always said you were scare of me growing up too fast,

Well motherfucker you made sure the last.

You made sure I was an goddamn adult by the age of ten,

You made sure I grew up a mother hen.

And I know they say don't speak ill of the dead,

But screw it, you filled my entire life with dread. 

Your wishes

It's Wishful Wednesday! What are your wishes?

Tackle Tuesday!

So today I am going to talk about how to tackle being unemployed. Or getting your time cut. I have recently went from working every day to working only on weekends. I am going insane.

I think that the worse thing that is happening is that I feel like I have no purpose. So I am dealing with this by taking initiative in finding a new job. The worse thing to do when you go from working to not working is getting used to the lack of work. You get used to not doing anything so that actually getting up and going to work everyday seems weird. You lose your drive, so my thing is to go and look over my goals, then I work on how to achieve them. I like to research what I want and what I need to do to get it, then I get drive. Like how I have recently been looking for jobs because I hate not working. Literally I hate it. Hate it. So much. Hate. Hate hate hate hate. So I plan on getting a new job in retail because I might as well right? So, research the job you want, or a job you don't hate, and get it. Don't try, don't say "I hope," say "I am going to get this job and kick butt." That will keep you on track. Also think of things you want other than a job, maybe you want a nice house, or to pay next months tuition, or maybe you just want a puppy. You need a job to afford that little puppy, he eats and poops and will need to get fixed (spay and neuter your pets kids), so you need to pay for that. That puppy is like a tiny, furry, four legged child who speaks a completely different language than you. You need to have a job to support him. Seriously though, get a job before you get a dog. Research it.

To sum it all up don't lose your want for a better life. Always want to make your life a great one, and remember that even having a job that isn't your dream, is still a job. You aren't going to start out on top, so you might as well get some experience on your climb.

Hope you all are having a good day! -J

Tackle Tuesday!

It's Tackle Tuesday! What should we tackle?

Found out how to do it

K peoples, I came up with my way to blog. I will try to do every day but I will need opinions too. The schedule will go: Motivational Monday; Because it's Monday and everyone needs some help, Tackle Tuesday; I talk about ways to tackle a life issue, Wishful Wednesday; What people want and my opinions on how to achieve it, Thinking Thursdays; Thoughts on three different world issues, Fun Fashion Friday; My shopping haul for that week, Simple Saturday; Really about anything if even that, Speak Up Sunday; You know this one, it's about speaking up!

So next will be Tackle Tuesday! What should we talk about tackling? And I may start a youtube channel, opinions?
-J

Rough night

Dear lord my night was horrible. My ex officially became an ex and that was lovely (you hear my sarcasm from the screen?). I feel like I'm gonna puke, and pass out but I am okay. Last night was horrible but I'm okay! Been through worse, been through better, gonna get through it, plus I have really awesome friends who were great through it all. But I'm tired. I'm okay though!

Sooo let's talk about things that make me happy and may make you happy! Daft Punk's song Get Lucky makes me happy, it makes me wanna dance. Seriously listen to that, it's great. I'm happy with all my friends and family, because they rock. I am loving painting my nails for some reason, I go through fazes of always having painted nails, it prevents my from biting them. I think it's because I don't like messing up my nail polish. I am also in love with something I've had for a while but stopped using, which is VS (Victoria's Secret) body creams.

K so this one I use in the day time because it smells lighter and more feminine. Plus it isn't too thick. It is Jasmine and Water Lily and smells wonderful! 

Then there is this one which smells like vanilla and is really thick. I use this at night and will probably be using it over the cold winter because of dry skin. It smells really nice and you don't need a perfume with either of them because they are scented. I like this because sometimes I want to smell pretty but not have perfume on. 

Now I haven't really been shopping but I'm planning on going tomorrow, so I will do another one of these soon. Has anyone used Lush? I really think that everything looks cute so I may be using that stuff, because I'm a sucker for anything that is pretty and smells good. 

So do you guys have anything you want me to review? And should I maybe start making videos? Maybe start my own Youtube channel? Give me opinions on what I should buy and try out. Even if it's just stores I should shop at, plus does anyone know a good place to buy Halloween costumes that aren't too expensive? Hope your night was better than mine! Remember to comment and fallow us on Twitter and Tumblr! Plus tell me what you wanna talk about! Think I'm gonna be a bit more serious, or not. Whatever you guys think. Maybe I'll work a schedule on what to do each day? Sorry I'm rambling and my brain is fried. I'll stop talking now. 

Hope you're having a good day! -J

Confidence

So with recent changes I kinda became more confident... and I like it. I am back to my spit-fire, sassy self whose mouth can get her in trouble. I like me like this, I have a smile and I am me. I just said screw it, I have spent the last three years kinda bored and in a pathetic, unhappy state. So I just smiled and laughed and sassed and I am now so happy. I am picking out college classes and looking for a new job and putting myself out there. I love it. I love how much I smile, how I constantly look in the mirror and say "You're a pretty great chic!" Plus I let my inner flirt out because I am young and I like to flirt. I'm fun and smiling and I am coming into my bad-ass self.

So let's talk about being bad-ass. Or we could put it into a more presentable way of becoming more confident. I do this with parties actually, I know that sounds weird but I really love throwing parties. I am planning a Halloween party which should be awesome and I just feel happy. I also let me be me, which can be difficult. I kinda just let myself out, of course staying appropriate and figure if someone doesn't like me they don't have to be by me. And guess what? That rarely ever happens! I think what is helpful is that I have this ability to look at people who don't like me and just say "Okay." Because you don't need other people to love you! You have to live with you, every single day, so act the way you think is right and that you love.

So because I feel good about me, I am telling you to feel good about you. It's a nice thing to love who you are, yeah no one's perfect but that's okay. So have a good life. - A very happy J

Kinda terrified

K so I am starting college pretty soon. I am actually a tiny bit afraid. I keep thinking and telling myself that it will be okay but I am freaking out. I am a grown up and I am excited and scared and a mixture of emotions.

So how do you guys deal with this mixture? When you are moving onto a new chapter in your life, how do you deal with it? I freak out so I research, but that can be bad. So what do you guys do? Do you get excited? Or scared? How do you handle it? What are some methods for coping with it?

Hope you are having a good week! - A very excited J

So ridiculous

So as we all know there is a person in my life who thinks I'm Satan. They make up lies, they pick on me, CONSTANTLY try to get me fired, all because I gave them "attitude" once. I don't put quotations because I'm trying to be smart, I put quotations because I really don't think I have ever given attitude to anyone but my parents, and I have never given attitude straight out of the blue. I spoke loudly, because they didn't hear me at first, but I don't think I gave attitude. If so it was never intentional.

Now you may be thinking, okay so why the big deal? Well this person then began to scream at me with a sleeping baby in the stroller I'm pushing, and long story short I went home. I guess because I never said sorry every time I'm happy this person seems to want to make me miserable. And so today I was called, and I'm quoting, "Fucking stupid."

Now you may be thinking "Well I woulda freaked!" And I wanted to a bit, but I didn't. I said as calmly as my flustered self could muster, "Can you just leave me alone? Just leave me alone. If you have a problem take it up with my boss." Then this person went and said I let the baby I was watching fall and almost "crack her skull open." Also told a lie that the baby was balling from pain, now the baby did fall, but she is learning how to walk. Also, she got back up and began playing again, I did not see even a shadow of a tear.

I am angry, I am upset, but I am pretty okay. I handled myself well and am proud of myself. Something to remember is that people suck, and misery loves company. If you're happy someone else is probably hating it, so just be happy you are that important to someone. You are so special that they see you happy and want to make you frown, so just smile brighter! Handle yourself with grace, make sure to use them as a positive, and just live your life.
-J

Change

Answer our Tumblr question! Don't have a Tumblr? Answer on our Twitter! It's fun! Staying with the change theme!

I can't stop laughing!

This video made me laugh so hard! Found it on my tumblr! Seriously couldn't stop smiling! Go watch!

I think it's getting better

So I have made some MAJOR changes to my life and I think it's slowly getting better. I spent the entire day at the beach and relaxed and enjoyed myself. So I think I will give some advice.

If you want a change don't be afraid to change something. I have made changes and so far it's not too horrible. I think that as we change our wants change, and I am in a new stage which is kind of scary and new but I pushed myself. If you want to change, push yourself. If you never push yourself you may live in this rut where you want change and never pursue it. I am pretty happy and I caused a change that is both positive for me and someone else. I am trying to do more fun things and I enjoy it. I have a genuine smile, and I don't feel stressed. I am happy.

So change something for the better. Whether it's cutting your hair, going back to school, doing better in school, getting out of a relationship, or just changing your attitude, change something. Improve your life. The point of life is to constantly improve ourselves and become better people. Even the smallest change is a positive. :) -J

And it keeps getting worse

Sooo things are getting worse. Hence no blogging. But that means a lot of shopping. So I have now began wearing foundation. I have never wore foundation but I hate how thick it is so I tried a BB cream. I LOVE IT. I use Revlon and it's kinda awesome. It's light and airy and thin so I don't feel like it's caked on. It's great, and I love it. I bought a powder and I use that over it and I love it. I bought L'Oreal Paris lipstick in "Cardinal Plume" and it's super red. But guess what? I love it.
I also went to Target and bought posters because I don't have enough of those. The Starry Night is over my desk and the Adventure Time is in some random spot.

I have no idea if I posted it but I found a sign that made me laugh at the thrift store so I will show you that.

It's probably one of my favorite signs and I also went to TJ Maxx, which is awesome, and bought this little hamper thing.

Because my room has no color other than posters and plants, I decided to go with a bright red. It's a big heavy canvas bag that I am using as a hamper. It adds the perfect pop of color and is useful, so yeah.

Again, I'm sorry I'm not blogging a lot. I feel a little... different. I am going through a lot of changes and I constantly feel sick and I'm indecisive and just everything is a pain. It'll get better though... Right? Right? I hope so. I'm conflicted. And confused. And just everything is just bleh. So wish me luck on this journey called life... It's a shit journey right now.