So I got a tablet which means I'm most likely going to be blogging more which is great. Life is kinda difficult lately, I've had a recent death in the family causing this to be the third death of a family member of mine within two years. I really wasn't surprised that the person died (they were extremely old) but I really just had a huge problem with another person dying. It's difficult when it feels like everyone you know is passing and it's really hard because death seams to just come in so nonchalant. You think death is going to be this huge thing and it really is someone just saying "this person died" and it feels very... odd. I mean death is such a horrible thing and it just seams to sit there with you not realizing it's there and then randomly joins your life. Like a person you haven't heard from for years deciding to drop by without any warning. It's uncomfortable, and I've never been afraid of death but I'm running out of people to lose and it scared me. I mean it really messed me up, and freaked me out. But back to the whole death thing, I think a real problem with death is that it just drops in. Which is the scariest part because you never expect it. You just go through life and death will just pop in. It's surprising and I think that that surprise is the worst part. Because we can't say goodbye and predict when death is happening we feel cheated by it. Especially when it is taking so many people from us at once, and no matter what there is no way to fix that. To be honest I don't even know why I'm writing this because I have no way of helping anyone go through it, it just has to happen.
So I hope you guys are having a good time, and if you are going through that cheated stage it will get better and I am here for you. Hope you all are good munchkins.
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