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Hey guys, totally bummed I didn't get to post yesterday, going through some changes in life, frazzled. So if I don't write something every day I'm super sorry. So last night I had this horrible dream where my mother was still alive and I screamed at her for abusing me and it just sucked. I woke up freaking out; does anyone else have night terrors? They seem to be my body's way of coping and I kinda hate it. Do you guys think dreams mean anything? I wrote a paper on it for psychology, Freud believed dreams were a glance into the subconscious life. Then again, that was Freud. If they do mean something, or are a glance into forgotten/blocked memories I wish they would just go away. I hate them. I think that it's normal for your body to cope with death in different ways than you think it should though. Night terrors have always been how I coped, I slept on my parents floor until I was 11 because of them. Now I've kinda gotten used to them and even though I hate them, I think I would feel lost without them. They have become a piece of my being, without them I wouldn't be me. Which is a little messed up because half the time I have them I wake up having an anxiety attack, but I think I've learned how to cope. Maybe it isn't good to learn how to live with these problems though? Do you guys live with any problems as a result from death/abuse? I would love to hear some stories on people who fixed them too, it could be inspiring. Hope you guys are having a nice week! -J