Intros are nice, right?

This is a little bit terrifying I will admit. I don't really know why I'm writing a blog, I think it's because I think maybe someone will see it who needs it. If you are going through a rough time, have trouble with a parent, with family, or just have a pretty crappy life right now, maybe this will help. At this exact moment I am rebuilding relationships with family who I have not spoken with in years. Why you may ask? Well because my mother was a schizophrenic drug addict, and that can cause strain on relationships.

Basically I have lived with my dad my whole life and when I was about two years old my new mom came to live with us. Then they had a baby, and life was pretty great. A year ago my mother died, which was weird. At first I started to laugh, and I said "You're joking right?" Then I slept a lot, and now I'm working on building relationships. So, if you are going through something like this it will feel really crappy. It's going to suck, but it does get better. No it won't always be the same, but it will get better. Just make sure to feel any emotion you want, except like murdering people. Don't do that. Or any other violent action towards a living thing (including yourself), take a boxing class. Did I make you smile a little? Good.

I have been home-schooled since I was in second grade, mainly because I never got to see my dad with his crazy work hours. And as a child who saw her mother go wacky I had some anxiety. To answer questions, yes I have friends, yes I play sports, yes I am going to college, yes I know how to be social, yes I dress like a normal person, no I don't have super long hair, no my family is not super religious, and no I don't think everyone can/should be home-schooled. There are kids who need a lot of structure and don't have parents who can give them the time for that; plus some kids don't listen to their parents. I personally like being home-schooled, and the only B I have ever gotten was in math, so, no, I am not an idiot by a school's standards. :)

I think that's everything for intros, so tell me what you're like, what you think. But please remember that you will not change anyone's views over the internet, so it's best to just respect them.

-J